I became unstable in all the anger and pain. I remember praying for God to heal and praying to take you away. It was difficult to watch you struggle, to feel helpless, and know there was nothing I could do.
I wish I could understand what was going on inside your head. You affected every part of me and not a single word was said. When we were young, we were a family. You were my brother. It was hard to see your life in the hands of another. I'm sorry I wasn't there and now you're gone.
I'm happy the burden of life is no longer a hold on you. You're safe and sound and I have found a part of me I never knew. I don't have all the answers why you we're the way you were, but I'm happy to call you family even in my struggle.
I'm sorry I wasn't there for you and now you're gone. You're my family. You're my brother, a part of me that will live on. I'm happy the burden of life is no longer a hold on you. This goes without saying I love you.
released June 20, 2014
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